11.28.18 blog entry ~ Oh What a Difference
Twenty-four hours ago I thought I would get nothing accomplished today and just prayed I would be able to get out of bed this morning. I was dealing with depression, anxiety and paranoia was trying to set up shop in my mind. Today, a totally different person. This version got things done, got above and beyond bonus type stuff done and feels well.
With Bipolar, I always know what goes up must come down and all that jazz. I know 24 hours can make all the difference, and oh, what a difference…problem being that it cuts both ways.
I get done what I can on the good days and take the win.
Take care of yourselves and each other. ✌💛🙏💙
(Photo credit: Google images Health Magazine)
(Photo credit from @antoniovincent on IG)
11.27.18 blog entry, To the Pillow, I Go
(Warning: curse word ahead.)
I’ve just discovered a most marvelous idea. Take my pillow to the restroom, turn on the fan and shower, and scream like a motherfucker into it!
Helps for a bit.
Photo credit Google images. Lilo and Stitch. Nani.
11.26.18 blog entry Common Denominator
I’m not sure why. I have spent hours upon hours in days among days trying to figure it out. My mom once told me not to bother wasting time like that because after all, is the person or persons I’m thinking about even giving me a second thought. Possibly, but even so, they definitely don’t waste time on me with a third thought. And I’m actually not blaming all these people I’ve lost in my life because there have been LOTS, and what is the common denominator? Or rather, whom? Answer is simple. Me. I equal common denominator.
I think I feel too intensely and describe too deeply and possibly even make others feel guilty about being overwhelmed with and by me. So, now they’re gone. Friends. Family. Even a first middle school aged boy that I liked – and who I believe liked me – even he and his wife won’t accept my friend request on Facebook. Really? And a friend of years has totally quit me. A friend since middle school and who was there for all the important wonderful new stuff, as well as the rough times, and vice versa.
I think it’s the Bipolar and the intensity that comes along with it. Even though I’d never wish it on my worst enemy, I have often thought that if people could spend a week inside my mind, my body, they could sorta understand. But I can’t do that, obviously, so people seem to continue slipping away instead. I even fear the folks I have left will soon be gone. I’ve deleted my meetup groups. I don’t have it in me to make new friends, only to lose them. Damn. I’m exhausted. Just so tired of it. Actually, I’m just plain sad. Sad and broken hearted. 💔
11.26.18 blog entry, Bipolar Mind
I found this in Google Images, and it said The Bipolar Mind.
Those of you with Bipolar, what do you think? Accurate image?
If you don’t have Bipolar Disorder, does this image help or prompt questions?
I survived. I thrive. If I stumble, I take two more steps. If I fall from a blow, I get back up. Every time. 💪🖤✌
Tile & Thoughts by @jenm_curry 2018
11.15.18 blog entry Halsey & Sebastian Yatra at 2018 Latin Grammys. Gorgeous music comforts my Bipolar soul.