I am so tired from hurting and holding myself up. From helping others hold themselves up. I want to quit. I’m close to quitting. Just want to be free of pain.
Boy tonight, I hear you sister! Mine in physical pain rather than emotional at the moment. I keep putting off Dr Appts with my internist as I do not want to be tested into further debt. Some nights I pray to “…die before I wake” I’m not suicidal, just tired of it all.
I know in my heart that days of joy…Spring flowers, getting to paint with a friend, reading an awesome book, seeing a great movie or episode of a favorite tv show, or hearing a beautiful song are in my future.
They are in yours too…right now hang on, by a thread if you have to. Giving up…you just may miss out on what is possible and that would be a shame.
My pain is both physical and emotional right now, so it’s a perfect storm. It’s setting my brain ablaze, and I cannot calm myself and give myself the pep talks, positive words, Bible sctipture, etc that I need. When I don’t have a grip of things with my mind, and I start worrying about the rest of my life, a life filled with chronic physical and emotional pain and turmoil, I panic.
I hope you feel better soon, Gina.
I hope soon that I have the desire to hold on because something good will come along.
Just gotta hand this over to Jesus, but I know I am not doing that as wholeheartedly as I should.
Bipolar, Uninvited 
I don’t have anything especially smart to say here. Please stay safe and know I’ve been here too many times to count. I can relate. Hugs!
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It is nice remembering I’m not alone. Thank you.
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Boy tonight, I hear you sister! Mine in physical pain rather than emotional at the moment. I keep putting off Dr Appts with my internist as I do not want to be tested into further debt. Some nights I pray to “…die before I wake” I’m not suicidal, just tired of it all.
I know in my heart that days of joy…Spring flowers, getting to paint with a friend, reading an awesome book, seeing a great movie or episode of a favorite tv show, or hearing a beautiful song are in my future.
They are in yours too…right now hang on, by a thread if you have to. Giving up…you just may miss out on what is possible and that would be a shame.
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My pain is both physical and emotional right now, so it’s a perfect storm. It’s setting my brain ablaze, and I cannot calm myself and give myself the pep talks, positive words, Bible sctipture, etc that I need. When I don’t have a grip of things with my mind, and I start worrying about the rest of my life, a life filled with chronic physical and emotional pain and turmoil, I panic.
I hope you feel better soon, Gina.
I hope soon that I have the desire to hold on because something good will come along.
Just gotta hand this over to Jesus, but I know I am not doing that as wholeheartedly as I should.
I just keep breathing and trying.
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Sometimes just breathing is all we can do…((((Gentle Hug)))) 💜
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Wait with hope for the Lord . Be strong, and let your heart be courageous. Yes, wait with hope for the Lord .
Psalms 27:14
One of my fav scripture.
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